Middle of the Night and Awake

Well…it is 4:25am. I don’t usually do this (get up this early when something is on my mind) but since I was hungry and I KNOW that I didn’t eat so well, I got up to have a pear and “write” down some thoughts. I recently completed a 5 day challenge to “Eat Clean.” I did AMAZING at eating well and eating the veggies in my fridge (still have some in there! ;) ). What this entailed was to not have refined/processed food, skip the sugars, less dairy than I was used to. There was a menu and grocery shopping list that I fully intended to follow. I purchased most of the veggies on the list and was a little (ok, maybe a LOT) scared that I would waste a LOT of it. So after making this huge purchase of veggies, I decided to start the challenge a few days earlier to “practice” eating well before I actually had to! (yeah, what can I say, I’m a little weird! ;) ) So I practiced, and I wasn’t perfect, and even when I was eating clean for the challenge I didn’t always follow the menu and did sometimes have one dessert (or more, clears throat) a day. BUT for the most part I did pretty well. I even lost about 4 lbs or so to get closer to my goal weight! Score!!! But the three days after the challenge, I went almost right back. Not too soon. The first day I did pretty well, the second day I made a dessert “for my hubby” but that didn’t stop me, and the third day I was eating all kinds of desserts at all kinds of hours. I must also say that one reason I was trying to eat well is because I am a nursing mom at the moment, and I was thinking that sometimes I was eating certain things with caffeine in them too late for my son and it seemed maybe he was actually being bothered by it. So even before the challenge came up I was trying to be really good with when I ate certain desserts etc. Well, during the challenge I was to take pictures of my meals, or at least post what I ate, and to eat every 2 ½ to 3 hours. So I kept pretty good track, most of the days. Of course some days were crazy here and there schedule wise. But I tried to do pretty good, but alas, without the accountability I just slid back into old habits. That is why I am here now. I want to live a healthy life. I want to eat healthy foods. YES I want to be able to eat desserts, but I would like to try to limit them to 1-2 per day and not give in to my cravings to eat just because they are there and they taste ohhh sooo good! I want my kids to eat healthy because they see me eating healthy! My daughter actually tried some new foods and ate them and seemed to like them because I was eating them and she wanted them off my plate. So yeah…I am started this blog thing (not that I am one who writes well at ALL!) to be able to have a way to be accountable to my food choices. I may just write about a bunch more things on here once I get going…and I have NO idea how to set this up…I am just typing in word to get it down on paper before it goes out of my head and I don’t do it. And ohhh….my pear is just amazing and soo juicy, mmm! So here goes to healthy eating for the rest of my life…hoping this helps!

Joy